Spread Your Wings

Laney was out bright and early this morning riding her bike.  She wanted me out there to watch her.  “Never stop watching me Mom!”
“I never will Laney.”
So I took my breakfast out and sat and watched her.  If it is possible she has gotten even better at riding overnight.  It amazes me that once you learn how to ride a bike it is like overnight and you just “take off” and never look back!
Ever since I can remember Laney has wanted to be able to ride her own bike on the Cherry Creek Trail.  If you have read this blog for any length of time you know what that is.  She talks about riding on it all time.  But of course there was always that frustration there of her not being able too.  Yesterday when she learned to ride that was one of the first things out of her mouth, “Mom!  When can I ride on the Cherry Creek Trail?!?”
Not wanting Corey to miss out on this opportunity I told her she was going to have to wait for the weekend.
This morning while I was out watching her, eating my breakfast, she again asked.  I gave her the same answer.  I got thinking about it.  I wondered if I should wait for the weekend and have all this pressure put upon her or if we should do a “test run” before hand just to see how it was going to go.  So I asked her, “What if you guys ride your bikes and I walk Baxter since I can’t ride my bike yet cause Dad is still fixing the tires?”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah!!!!”
I reminded her of the basic rules of the trail and we were off!
It was not sure what to expect and it really could have gone either way.
I can happily report that things went fantastically!
Ava has been a super awesome big sister throughout these whole events these last two days and she led Laney with such grace and poise and without her usual bossy-ness.  It brought tears to my eyes.
Laney stayed on the right on the trail like she was supposed to.  They stopped and waited for me like they were supposed to.  Laney even had the guts to ride down a big hill and I heard her yelling, “Wheeeeee!” the whole way down!  This from the girl who dares to do nothing!
I could hear her on the trail saying two things over and over.  “I’m doing it!” and “This is so much fun!”
Laney grew by leaps and bounds today.  You could see it written all over her face and you could see it in the way that she acted.  I was so very thankful to have been a witness to it.  It is such a privilege to be her mom!  So often I wonder why it is that God gave me children.  So often I wonder if I’m doing it “right” or how much I’m screwing them up.  I wonder if I’m giving them everything they need to succeed in life.  Days like these come along and I’m just so thankful that I get to be a part of who they are becoming and I realize that no matter where I am lacking God’s gonna make up the difference and it is worth the pain of the days where I think I’m a failure.  Days like today when I watch them spread their wings and ride ahead of me and “they don’t need me anymore”…at least for a little while…I’m grateful.  When they head off into the unknown I know that somewhere along the way I must have done something right.
I didn’t have my camera with me this morning.  But when I did see the kids I just saw them riding away.  In my mind I was giving them a big shove and saying, “Go, go, go!!!”


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3 Responses

  1. Jeni
    ok, this one made me cry.
  2. Ann
    Jen, wonderful story that I can relate to so well. My DD also is flying away so fast. Thank you for sharing. Ann
  3. Wendy
    Yea! Go Laney Go!! I love it when a child learns something new and finds out it isn't as hard as they thought it was going to be or as scary...Then they want to keep doing it, over and over again...Enthusiasum!!